grumpy

so we're discussing moving to south carolina. i have a friend there--- this sounds like a bad start... but--- i have a friend there that owns a gym... and some family near by that i haven't talked to in ages....
damn, that sounds like the same way i got here.
maybe we need to think this through a little more.
i was trying to figure out what it is exactly about this place that i hate so much.
i don't know if it's the place so much as the fact that we just aren't happy. we don't have a whole lot going on, we don't have many friends and we end up doing the same thing every day.
i wake up when erik goes downstairs to make breakfast, coffee, morning, get ready for work, work 9 long hours at a job that every day makes me hate it a little more.... (yesterday i forgot to log out of my phone while i was on lunch which means that calls came through and i wasn't there to handle them -- therefore not showing our customers how much we care) ...then i come home, make/eat dinner, maybe drink a little wine, take care of my farm, possibly read and go to sleep to start the same day over..
unless of course i have time off, like today.
then i get to farm more, read more and perhaps watch movies and plan things that i may or may not ever get to do.
i guess i'm just grumpy and homesick.
it's almost thanksgiving and i have no family around and no way of cooking a turkey.
man, this is not a good mood to be in. i need to find something that's going to give me a little bit more positive attitude or i won't make it through the next 4 months.