goals for 2010

i just read this blog: http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/1JHmS6/www.lifereboot.com/2010/10-things-i-wish-someone-told-me-10-years-ago/ (thanks to amy for finding stumbleupon.com... love it!)
shaun discusses his previous year and the top 1o things he wished that someone had told him 10 years ago. that's fine and mighty but one thing that he mentioned that he does is create a list of goals each year... i like this better than the word resolutions so i'm going to list out my "goals" for this year.
goal #1: get the hell out of lubbock. i don't know if this place is really as bad as i think it is or if i'm just bitter because of everything that's happened, but i know one thing. i need to leave this place. erik and i are trapped. there's nothing to do, everything is commercialized, materialistic and bland all at the same time. there's no flavor here, and if there is flavor it'll land you in the bathroom. we've completely exhausted our list of things to do in lubbock: drink, drink at a bar, go to the movies, watch movies or eat at a chain restaurant. done, done and done. now get me out.
goal #2: this is going to be a bit more difficult since the other part is mainly planned already- just needing to get out of this lease and need the funding for it. goal #2 is to plan our dream wedding. now as i've stated before, i'm not the type of girl that already had their dress and location already picked out. i didn't think this was going to happen for another million years but i met the man of my dreams and now i can't wait to be married and spend the rest of our lives together. i think once we're out of this hell hole it'll be easier to plan because that can be the main focus but i do want it to be the best day of our lives (to date at least).
goal #3: to read more. actually i think this may have been on the list of "resolutions" last year but i didn't even think of it. i'd really like to read eat, pray, love before i get married since she warns people against getting married before the age of 25. ( i'll be 25 two weeks after we get hitched) i feel like there's a whole world of knowledge out there and i've only begun to really look at it.
goal #4: find some place and begin to settle down. i know that sounds easy but living some place for over 6 months where you know you aren't going to stay is hard work. you don't really have a home, living in transition. you don't make the friends you need, you don't do a whole lot because you know it's only temporary. now erik and i are moving out of lubbock, where we hate and do not want to be and have not made a home in the least, to move in with my parents so we can save money and plan our wedding without having to worry about making rent and any other troubles that may occur... but that's not our home and we're definitely not going to stay there or make ourselves comfortable. by the end of 2010, i'd like to know where we're going to be and know that we can stay there and buy things and decorate and make friends without being like -- oh you'll have to visit when we leave.
goal#5 : and with the previous goal, i'd like to work some place that i like. that i enjoy. that i don't get up and dread the next 8-9 hours and can't wait for any time off. now, my job is great if that's what you're looking for, but it's not me. it's not what i want, i'm not surrounded by the type of people that i enjoy being with... i liked that about my previous jobs at least. this is work just to make conversation with these people. ugh.

i think those are some pretty hefty goals. i could make some easier goals to make sure i hit them like, continue posting in my blog, don't get sidetracked from what i want to do, continue my gratitude journal, write a book, make sure i do my laundry more than once a month... maybe those can be goals part two. that list will be a bit longer. i'll have to keep that updated...

for now... goal #1 is my biggest concern.